It’s that time of the year again. What time? The time of the year when every pre-med out there questions his or her life choices. Our brains becomes flooded with statements like…
“What are you doing to yourself?”
“You are tired. Kick your feet up and just take a nice long nap. Forget about the tests.”
“Are you sure you are cut-out for this pre-med thing?”
“Why do you even want to be a doctor anyway?”
Though these thoughts usually come from the sleep-deprived irrational brain, there is some rational questions that arise…
Why keep going? Why not stop? Why not do something else with your life?
Most of the time we tend to silence these scary thoughts and pretend they never happened. We are pre-med. We cannot show weakness.
So what do we do?
Something else besides the prestige and the financial stability must be motivating us to keep going?
What is it?
That older woman in the free clinic. She tells me she doesn’t sleep more than 4 hours a night. I ask why. She tells me that she can’t sleep because her husband had lung cancer . At night, when he coughed, she feared he would die. He passed away years ago she tells me…but she still wakes up.
That ten year old girl who wears a surgical mask anytime she goes out in public. She can go into anaphylactic shock for air-borne milk allergen exposure.
The woman with Stage 4 ovarian cancer. Her husband, sitting beside her, just had a stroke. His whole left side is paralyzed. She jokes about her upcoming death. He tries to forget by watching TV nonstop. He clicks the remote with his right hand.
That little kid with Crohn’s Disease who takes more pills than I can count.
My Grandpa, an engineer and man who loved working with his hands, who is now unable to move or speak because of Parkinson’s disease.
The man in the nursing home who does not remember me after a few minutes.
That through my studies, I will gain the critical thinking skills necessary to make the correct diagnoses.
That through my studies, I will gain the patience to listen to each and every symptom.
That through my studies, I will gain the strength to carry on even when I feel like I can go on no further.
For the privilege to make a difference in the lives of our future patients and their families.