I’m struggling with something.
And to be honest I never thought I was.
In today’s society being a male comes with a lot of expectations.
One of which is never being afraid. I have told myself my whole life that I am invincible, but deep down I know that is not the case.
I was given a wake up call. Quite literally, the last few weeks.
For about two weeks now, I have had numerous nightmares a night. Sometimes waking up in cold sweats. Sometimes trying to catch my breath. Sometimes immediately calling people I care about to calm me down. While I do hate nightmares, I am grateful because they have reminded me that I am not okay. My subconscious mind is restless and the dirtiness is rising to the surface.
So what should I do now? Pray for courage.
In Daniel 3 we see three men going against the King’s orders of worshipping the idol. They tell the King that if they are thrown in the furnace so be it. This is a Bible story that has always stuck with me since I was young. I think it has to do with the boldness. The ultimate trust. The three men’s ability to speak from their hearts.
I think the coolest part of this whole story is not when the men say that God will save them, but rather that they will still love and serve the Lord even if He does not.
How rad is that? They are so accepting of God’s will that courage naturally follows. They don’t have to ask for courage. It is right there waiting.
I want me some of that.
For courage to flow so easily from my mouth and my deeds.
This isn’t to say I have no courage. I believe there have been moments in my life when I did not know where the courage came from. When I acted so quickly and without thought to do what is right. The point is I want that in every moment of my life. In order for that to happen courage needs to become a habit.
This habit begins and ends with our relationship with the Lord.
That was the part I was missing. I thought courage came from myself. Society has told me that all along.
If you want to be courageous.
You need to be tough.
You need to look fiere.
You need to be physically strong.
Friends, today I remind you that courage is a gift from God. A gift that only comes from our relationship with Him.
Today I am asking God for courage to live my life according to His will. To not care what the people of the world tell me to do, say, or think.
But to say back, “Throw me in the furnace. I am not afraid, for Christ is always with me.”