I have a problem.
And I bet I am not the only one who has it.
It is a problem in my prayer life.
Days like today, the problem has shown it’s face.
There are times when I catch myself…
praying to myself.
What do I mean by this?
Well, during my prayers I find myself talking to myself not to God, which is the whole point of prayer.
In moments of silence I find myself telling myself
what I NEED…
what I SHOULD have…
were I MUST go…
why I WILL succeed…
My prayers are not mighty arrows of trust, faith, and hope sent to my Father in Heaven.
They are whispers to myself that flow in one ear and out the other causing more distress each time they circle.
They are stagnant wishes and faithless pursuits.
Prayer is a mirror my friends.
It is a way for us to send our thoughts, discomforts, and struggles to God. He will send us the reflection with all the earthly junk mail stripped out. Through prayer God will send us the filtered truth. This will allow us to live in a way that glorifies His name.
However, when we pray to ourselves the prayers sit in our minds like dust balls growing larger and larger. We become more confused. We become restless. We lose hope in God.
All because we are afraid to let go.
In true prayer, there is a letting go process.
We let go of our concept of time by falling into the eternal love of a God who loves us.
We let go of our ways and trust His plan for us.
We let go of our need to speak and we listen.
One way to test if you are praying to yourself is to see how you feel after prayer. Assess if prayer has made you MORE anxious, MORE restless, and MORE fearful. If this is the case, these feelings are not from God and stem from an internal dialogue with yourself instead of an external dialogue with your Creator.
Friends, I encourage you to watch for this problem next time you have your hands folded.
Ask yourself, “Am I praying to my Savior or myself?”
It is time we let go and let God.
And stop talking to ourselves. Because our conversations with the Creator are the only way we will find peace in such a hurting world.