Have you ever found yourself having an amazing week?
You are super at peace with the world?
However, almost immediately desolation strikes.
Out of left field.
You find yourself on a spiritual battlefield, and you are totally not prepared for it.
When this happens, you start to grapple with feelings.
When this happens, you start to doubt during prayer.
When you talk to others, you feel no purpose.
When you think about yourself, all you can see is evil.
These moments are difficult. They are waves the devil uses to try to drown us. These moments are storms that seem to never run dry. Rain keep coming. Lightening and thunder keep blazing. You are struggling to stay afloat.
In these times, the devil uses your feelings to consume you.
You Feel scared.
You Feel like you messed up.
You Feel guilt.
You Feel the weight of your own humanity.
It is extremely difficult to not listen our feelings when they are at the forefront of our minds.
So what do you do?
You pray, but the doubts persist.
You keep moving forward, but the sadness keeps striking.
You take action, but you still feel the weight of the water around you.
Evil’s greatest tactic is consuming us with feelings of guilt. We are paralyzed by it. It causes us to only look within. The selflessness we teach as Christian’s is so much more difficult.
This is precisely why you must persist.
No matter how you “feel” keep persisting.
Matthew 7:7…”knock and the door will be opened.”
In this passage Christ did not tell us how long we must knock.
When you start to knock you may feel hopeful that the Lord will open the door.
But after a month of knocking you may start to doubt his mercy.
The Lord and the apostles constantly remind us to persist, persist, persist.
Have hope in the Lord’s plan. Always.
So when you feel like the most unbelieving person ever. Keep praying.
When you feel like you messed up. Keep striving to do good.
When you feel guilty every second. Keep being selfless.
When you talk to others and feel worthless. Keep loving others.
Friends, I encourage you today to keep knocking. Knock until your knuckles bleed. Knock as the world shouts “you are crazy.” Knock when thoughts of doubt, despair, and guilt consume your mind.
For when the door is opened.
It will all be worth it.