Trust in the midst of adversity is what creates a saint.
Trust is a gift and a choice.
It cannot be formed without a constant breaking of oneself.
I find trust to be one of the most fascinating/difficult ideals.
Alongside with its brother humility, it is fundamental to the life of the Christian.
The deepest trust is the gateway for the grace of faith.
Trusting though magnificent, is extremely difficult.
In the past it felt easy. I proclaimed to God how much I trust in Him. Yet, when adversity came I watched my knees shake and allowed myself to become paralyzed. This was not trust at all.
I think we all have fallen victim to this at times.
We proclaim our trust in God, yet our actions speak otherwise.
We are like Peter before he walked out to Christ on the water. As the trials come we shout to God how much we trust Him, yet we never step out of the boat.
Why is trust so difficult?
We live in a world where we always feel like someone is out to get us. In our social media/email generation we can never turn parts of our life off. I know for me, I always feel like I am forgetting something. As students too, we are primed from a young age to be sure we never forget any assignment or else we will get in trouble. This has instilled in us the habit of wanting to control ever single aspect of life.
Recently I took some board exams for medical school. In the middle of the studying, I could feel another test occurring in my soul.
A test of trust.
These exams determine a lot. They can really help or hurt me in my process to residency programs (what type of doctor I can be.)
Throughout the process of intense studying, I didn’t really have anyone to rely on. Sure, I had my family and my fiancee. But come test day, it was God, me, and the computer screen. And deep down I knew that truth.
Have you ever had a moment in your life where you felt fully alone?
These moments, where control is impossible, is the moment for trust.
Trust is unique because it is only built in our souls when times of struggle come.
Struggle and suffering is the concrete that builds the brick wall of trust.
Trust is built in trial; therefore, we must not waste our trials with anxiety and distress.
This does not mean you must not feel anxious, scared, upset, sad etc. You will of course feel these emotions. You are in fact human. To be immune to feeling these emotions you would cease to be human. However, the choice to remain paralyzed is ours. The choice to choose trust is written on our souls.
How can we show Christ how much we trust in Him?
When the storms are rough, we do not run away, rather we run into the rain.
When the tears fill our eyes, we carry on and let them water our trust.
When anxiety consumes us, we move our quivering limbs step by step.
To trust in Christ is to show our Lord how much we love Him.
To trust is to acknowledge that Christ is the Truth.
It is that simple.
Trust is a prayer which the world can witness daily.
It is cracking the egg from the inside only to witness the beauty of a new life.
It is time we crack the shell of control and become saints.