She Held My Hand

Have you woken up in the morning and felt like you must have swam across the Atlantic in your sleep? When your feet touch the floor, you catch yourself from falling over? Your eyelids decide to stay partially closed and the shower does not help? I felt exactly like this when I woke up today….

God and the Dunk Tank

You are sitting in the dunk tank. Your feet are dangling above the cold water. You know it’s freezing because your pinky toe just grazed the water. A shiver runs down your spine. The so called mini diving board you are sitting on is unstable. You can hear the rusty hinge squeak as you squirm in your…

I Know

In the past I had a serious entitled “I Just Don’t Know.” I believe I did 3 posts with this title. If you check out my past posts you might be able to tell that these words came at times of extreme confusion. Times of immense uncertainty. Times where fear coated my core. I still…

Bird House

“Bird House” by n.J.bellacicco There once was a carpenter, who wanted to build a bird house for his dying friend. He and his friend would sit by the window and watch the birds eat from the feeder all day long. This friend could not move because he was too weak. The birds would come and…

Failing your New Year’s Resolution

Like the majority of the world… whenever I start a new year’s resolution I fail miserably after the first few weeks. After I get off track, I seem to give up because….well I lost. My bad habits won.  I get so discouraged at my lack of willpower that it seems to zap away all my…

I’m an Elf

It is sometime in May. You are an elf working in Santa’s workshop. You have been making toys all day and are tired. Christmas is not for a few more months anyway. So, you leave and go out and do elf things. But there is one elf that doesn’t join you and your friends. This…

I’m Here For a Good Time

Lately, I’ve been thinking a lot about my relationship. My relationship with… time. Whenever I haven’t studied enough I constantly say, “There just isn’t enough time.” When I am hanging out with friends, it feels like it is over in a millisecond. Time moves so fast. When I am at the doctor’s office waiting for…

The Purse Lady

I was in Church last week. Placed on the seat next to me was a purse. The lady  who owned the purse was two seats away. The choir started singing and just like that Church had started. Maybe, ten minutes into the start a couple walked in and the usher pointed to the seat next…

He Gave Me the Bird

God gave me the bird. Before I am called a blasphemer… Let me explain.  The last few months have all about listening to God for me. My whole life I have been a talker. For those that know me well can attest to this fact. However, in the brokenness and confusion of the last few…

God Wrecked Me 

I’m a Christian man. I pray. I’ve never missed a Sunday. I love people. I love God. Yet, for some reason in my heart I never believed that I heard His voice. In my prayers I felt distance. In my Church I felt distracted. I love people but how can I love more? I love…

Do You Talk to Yourself?

I have a problem. And I bet I am not the only one who has it. It is a problem in my prayer life. Days like today, the problem has shown it’s face. There are times when I catch myself… praying to myself. What do I mean by this? Well, during my prayers I find…

My Only Trophy

Above my fridge I have a trophy.   It is my only trophy.   The only one I kept. It is pretty big and was for a soccer shootout competition I won. Let me tell you the story: When I was 13 my parents told me about a soccer competition that would take place at…